I have been neglecting this blog just like I knew I would. Here are the updates in the life. The Meds are proving to be a waste of time. Granted, it's only been a full month that I have been on them but I lost like 6 lbs within two weeks, but that came back less than a couple days later. I didn't have my period the first month while on them but I guess it's trying to come on today. *sighs*
My insurance appeal has been denied and I'm just raising them the middle finger. Tomorrow or next week I'll just try and find some reasonable insurance I can get for myself. Fuck ACS and their dumb bullshit. I'm over it.
I have to go to work everyday for the next two weeks so I'm going to be tired and super cranky. Like how I am now.
In other news I have been visiting Jax a lot more lately seeing my parents and stuff. I'm trying to get over the odd, and guilty feelings I still have pent up inside me from the situation last year. I hung out with my guyfriend Cyd last time I went to Jax and he's a crazy character. I will be attending his and my fathers birthday at the end of the month(July). I bought platform boots just for Cyd's b-day. He looks extremely goth, but knowing the inner workings of his mind I would not label him such.
I bought awesome fabric to make corsets b/c I have been reading online how to do them correctly and I've purchased like two or three patterns. I'm excited and can't wait to get my supplies in the mail for the boning. Jo-anns stuff just isn't going to cut it. I will have to take pics of the fabric and add them later.
This weekend I purchased two unfinished wooden birdhouses to paint and put outside. I did it in the hopes that my momma bird would come back and have a safer place to nest. This is how it came out. I mainly painted to reduce my stress level. Up close it kinda looks craptastic but I still heart the lil' house considering there was no pattern.
I only did the one I'm still working out the colors for the second one. Alright, time to shower and get ready for my hell. Have a lovely one.
So on May 27, 2008 I started taking my 500mg doses of Metformin. I am not diabetic nor insulin resistant and still confused on why the doctor put me on this medication. So I went trolling around the internet to see if anyone else was going thru what I'm going thru. Within a few inquiries I found http://soulcysters.com/ it's mainly for women who suffer from PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome). I found a few posters in the "Metformin Success Stories" forum of people like me who aren't IR or diabetic.
Anyways, I came here to talk about how the meds have made me feel in these past couple of days. The first day of taking it I was expecting to be running to the bathroom sweating and praying I made it in time, but that didn't happen until nearly 10hrs later. Well minus the sweating part. The first day wasn't so horrible.
The second day on it the samething happened, except when I took my dose of Amour (natural thyroid medicine) I started getting seriously dizzy and nauseated. My stomach felt like it was on slow spin cycle. I laid down and slept for the rest of the day after that episode.
The third day I got smart about taking the Amour on a full tummy and I only felt slightly dizzy and nauseated.
Today I decided it would be better for me to start taking my Metformin in the morning instead of at night b/c in order to not feel totally gassy and gross you have to eat a heavy meal that last thru out all those hours before it decides it's potty time. I just discovered this little fact out lastnight at work. :o/ So I had to leave and get something heavy to eat to kill the feeling, which worked.
Ok, let me skip around a bit. The doctors excuse for putting me on Metformin was to regulate my periods. Yeah, trust me I looked at her crazy too b/c I then told her "um...doesn't birthcontrol do that?" I was worried about trying Metformin b/c I thought the doctor was trying to say I was diabetic now, which would have not been cool at all. When I went to my gynecologist in 06' she didn't want to put me on Metformin b/c I'm not insulin resistant, therefore she thought it would not help with anything since my periods were regulated by birthcontrol. At the end of July we'll see if Metformin was any help at all with the weightloss. In the 3.5 days I haven't lost a pound so we'll see if switching the meds to the morning will help instead of eating heavy at night. I broke myself of eating heavy at night for over 4yrs now and it doesn't feel comfortable eating that late.
I'll be posting periodically about my bouts with Metformin and Amour and if I have any success with the two drugs. :o)
Saturday evening I got in the car and drove to Jacksonville, FL. I honestly didn't want to come that day due to getting an unexpected visitor when I went potty, but I drugged myself up and got in the car and made the trip. This trip back home to see my parents and Lele/Aaron has been an eye opener on so many levels.
Like now I realize how much my mother misses me and loves me and it's cute b/c looking back I was so depressed thinking my parents didn't fully love me b/c I didn't come out as that son they wanted.
For the first time in years me and my middle sister spoke about something real and not just bullshit "hey" and "bye." Her comment about me being her "long lost sister" made me realize how much I alienated myself from my family since high school, seven years ago.
I suppose it is also a moment to realize I've grown up a lot in almost every aspect of the word.
Lastnight I went to a strip club just to say I went to one finally. Hehe, I went with my guyfriend Aaron and he wouldn't take my money up to the stage for me so I didn't feel awkward. He said, "Oh no, this is your experience, you go up there and give the girl her money." So after a couple more girls I finally went and gave a chick 5 bucks to get fully nude and of course after they did that she made me feel like I had to watch the rest of her set. She was by far the most impressive on the pole! Afterwards she came and gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek for the money.
I don't know if I would have enjoyed it or felt less awkward with anyone else other than Aaron. He's my first male BFF that hasn't turned his back on me just b/c he's dating a chick. He just doesn't understand how much I like that about him. It feels like I'm bestfriends with a male version of myself and that is fucking awesome! Seriously.
Tonight is my last night in Jax and I'm hoping everything will go smoothly. Actually, I know everything will go smoothly. I was kinda dreading coming to Jax b/c Lele would be accompanied by her husband the whole time, but now I can honestly say I know and understand her husband better and I appreciate the time that was given. Lele made the comment that she thinks I'm good for Derek's ego b/c I laugh at his jokes but I just told her it's b/c I "get it" I've got a serious nerdy side and Derek is kinda nerdy, lol. Sometimes I feel like I have too many sides of me.
Haha...so I go outside to get a better snapshot of my "Faceless Desires" painting, that I'm reworking, and while coming back inside I decide to take another snapshot of the birds nest.(I just found today) I have my earplugs in and not really paying attention and when I get closer to the nest, momma bird comes flying out and scares the shit out of me! My short high pitched scream even scared me and then I started laughing b/c it's funny! I haven't screamed like that in years!
Yanno, that kinda scream like when you're in a haunted house and something reaches out and touches you all of a sudden and you freak out? I think those are the best kinds of screams b/c they are real and funny to hear.
Here are some snapshots of the nest and the painting I'm redoing. I told ya I would try to complete a painting a week and list them.
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So today after I got off work I told myself I wouldn't go to sleep until I called my works HR department to figure out why my deductions had been stopped for my medical insurance. BUT I did go to sleep and woke up around 9:30ish. Long story short, the people(management) at my job should be fired!
So after I call and talk to HR I have to hurry up and write this long ass appeal explaining what happened and fax it to the Appeals department. I originally was going to take my written appeal to work and have them be aware of the confusion they had caused and have them fax the appeal for me for free... but those plans changed.
Before I was going to head to work I dropped my sewing machine off at the sewing shop to get oil and a clean,
although whoever will clean it won't be cleaning much considering I only used it 4 times since I bought the damn thing 5 yrs ago! NE Ways! When I was checking in the sewing machine the lady was doing her checklist but realized I didn't have a bobbin already in the machine. She's all like where is your bobbin and I'm thinking to myself this is a sewing machine store are you really going to expect me to drive all the way home just to bring you a damn bobbin? I just looked at her crazy while thinking this.
So I look around the shop for sewing stuff and just asked "don't you guys sell bobbins for sewing machines" and she tells me nope they don't sell Singer bobbins. Are u fucking kidding me?! That whole shop was decorated with antique SINGER sewing machines but yet they don't carry bobbins for that brand?!
So anyways I drove the 10mins back home to bring them the stupid bobbin and I brought the whole little gray case that came with the sewing machine before she bothered to say anything else was missing.
Seriously, should it really cost over 100 dollars to get a sewing machine serviced? I mean.....c'mon! That's more than I paid for the machine itself! Ok, ok...I'm off it!
So after that I go to Sam's Club and buy me a bag of frozen fruit and a bag of skinless, boneless natural chicken. In the process of doing that I call Corie and talk to her, since now I have the night job I barely see her or have time to hang out with her. I cheer her up over the phone and then decide I won't go to Pakmail yet to fax my appeal b/c I wanted to go see Corie for alil bit.
Before getting to Corie's I stopped at Publix and got a chicken salad sub on wheat with my usual raspberry tea to drink. I also picked up some sushi. I was actually only there, to begin with, to get Corie some Advil and cupcakes to further her cheering up process. Aren't I such a good friend? LoL Sometimes I can be but most times I pull the MIA routine if I have too much shit going on in my head to deal with people. I get to Corie's and chill for an hour an half then run over to Pakmail and fax my appeal.
Even though it doesn't seem like I did much, I feel like I accomplished a lot today.
Oh yeah and I finally listed the angel paintings, "Conversation" on Etsy. I told myself at least once a week I need to list the paintings I have that need minimal work to be complete. Here it is...
Oh yeah and before I went to Corie's or Sam's, I went to my fave Art Store, Utrecht, and got a huge roll of paper I plan to do something with. Alright I think I rambled on long enough. I'm getting sleepy.
Well yesterday was my birthday and I was pretty dang happy about stuff when I woke up the night before my b-day.
When I got off work I was happy I didn't have to go in the night of my b-day. So anyways.
My hair was being all lame when I tried doing it and I wasn't really
liking how the auqa eyeshadow was going, but I got compliments after
compliments, so I must've done it right. I wore aqua eyeshadow to go
with the earrings I purchased from CrysallisCreations.etsy.com, here they are http://www.etsy.com/view_transaction.php?transaction_id=7995818.
Plus, I couldn't find my sexy black heels to complete my outfit :o(. I still managed to look cute though. I forgot to take pics.
Yesterday, I told Med I wanted a carrot cake for my b-day b/c I LOVE it, and I specifically wanted it from Publix. He didn't do that. Then when I get my b-day card, I was like "hmmz....that card looks familiar."
Yeah, it looked familiar b/c he got me the same exact card a couple years ago! So I was pretty pissy about that. Granted... he didn't scribble the same message in it, but had I really been a true drama queen he so would've seen his stuff on the lawn for screwing up my cake order and being lazy and getting me the same exact b-day card!
Ok, I don't really want to dwell too much more on that. He made it up to me by taking me out to my favorite restaurant, Macaroni Grill. I had my one glass of leaning belini with my dinner and all was right with the world. :o) I wanted to get really plastered but I knew if I started drinking too much Med would want a drink too and he's a mean drunk. He would make me very violent with him had he drank and became an asshole! Mac Grill was fun :o) I got a free slice of chocolate cake at Mac Grill and the a girl sang Happy Birthday to me in Italian. It was cute. I ended up giving the cake to a friend though b/c I don't like chocolate on chocolate. That is like overkill, unless I make it.
Lastnight was aslo another friends birthday, but she had already celebrated it last friday night with Corie and I didn't get to go b/c I work friday nights. So she was getting pissy with Corie for wanting to go have dinner with me on my birthday. Which I couldn't understand until I got up this morning and read what she left on my facebook. She wanted us (me and her) to celebrate our birthday together for the night.
Oops! Well leaving messages on facebook is not a smart idea, seeing as I hardly check facebook b/c I have more friends on myspace. Besides we're (me and her) not really that close. Oh well.
So I am officially 26 yrs old. I am pushing 30 and I'm not sure how I feel about that. Just makes me realize how fast time flies by.
So today I was on a mission to take Sir Pugsley G. to PetSmart to just walk around and get him a few treats, while picking up feline pine for the cats.
He does awesome in the store walking around with me and being silly for the strangers. When we were checking out, a female Boston Terrier was too hyper for him and he got scared. Everytime she came near him he'd whine and back up, not even wanting to sniff her or be sniffed by her.
A piss and a dump later, outside the store.
We get into the car and I decide I'll take Sir Puggster to the dog park. After trying to remember exactly how to get to Tom Brown Park and find the right road to turn down. Something told me I would be better off just walking him around in the open field away from the dog park.
Why didn't I listen?
I walk Pugsley toward the park for the smaller dogs and everything was fine, but he was still hesitant to go in. Probably calling him "chicken" wasn't the right coaxing method. He goes in and I try walking him over to a free bench in the park to just chill and see how he'd do with the lil' dogs. He was still trying to run away from the dogs who were approaching him.
So this male Jack Russell Terrier, (if u ask me he was more mutt than jack russ, but besides that) comes up to Pugsley sniffs him and then leaves, then comes charging back barking and trying to nip at my baby! So I rush and pick him up before he's bitten.
The lil' fuckin' dog doesn't stop trying to charge at Pugsley and is practically clawing and jumping up my legs to get my lil' guy, who's a nervous wreck in my arms! I didn't care about the jack russ b/c had we not been in that park and it was some average mutt running loose, I would have already beaten the shit out of it to protect my baby. That may sound cruel but it's my maternal instincts.
In the process of being chased, my Puggers, vomited all over the place. When this bastards owner came over she kept trying to tell me her dog is usually an angel and it must've been b/c pugsley was on a leash that her dog attacked and had I had him off the leash her dog would have been ok with my dog. Yeah, but while saying all that she also mentioned that was just her second time at that dog park. So give me a break, lady!
Had I had Pugsley off the leash and her dog still attacked, I'd be dealing with a vet bill now b/c they couldn't even control the dog by calling for him. So she can kiss my ass! Puggers is now known as a wimp and we'll be keeping him out of the dog parks.
The reason I kept Pugsley on a leash is b/c I know he's hardheaded and doesn't listen when he's gone off too far. People can't just assume that their dog is going to be "ok" with every animal just b/c he appears that way. It just takes a second for an animal to snap! So in my conclusion of this tiny *rant* paragraph, if you can't control your dog by voice command....then more than likely your pooch needs to be on a leash. End rant and ciao!
with a seller on Etsy. I purchased two corsets in January and have yet to receive them. I could understand if the seller had contacted me and told me "hey I tried to send them and they came back" but not even that.
What I keep getting is the run around that they sent it out. I reported the seller and they finally contacted me shortly after being reported but only to tell me the same line again that they were sending it out that following day. That's 68 bucks that has been gone for over 2 months with nothing to show for it!
I doubt I would be likely to do business with this seller again unless it were a small cheap item. This makes me a bit sad. Plus, paypal only allows 45 days for a full refund so who knows how much I'll be able to get back if anything. *le sigh*
Alright, it's time to go get ready for work.
So today, besides being all congested, I had a great day! Right now I'm listening to my new mp3 player and BT's Simply Being Loved is playing and I'm just a bopping and typing. I dunno I just have an inner peace again.
I found my balance again and all is right in the world of Karen.
I just realized out of this paycheck I really did a lot for myself. I got my nails done and bought clothes, a pair of shoes and seasons 3 and 4 of Will & Grace. Normally, I am good and only get one or two things out of a check for myself to enjoy and the rest of the money goes to bills or supplies. The whole getting my nails and eyebrows waxed was a total impulse thing b/c normally I'm cool with the tomboyish thing I got going.
DelorisKaren is on hiatus for right now. I have to wait until the artistic mood hits me and tie myself to my office or guest room with a pen/pencil and pad or paint bush and paints.
I really want to go take a hip hop class and a pole dancing class. I think those classes would be super fun! I already know where I would buy my pole online for the house http://www.lilmynx.com/ isn't that pretty pimp?
I just know often I see myself dancing way better than I actually do in my head, every time I listen to music. Which makes me wonder if I was an awesome dancer in my past life or will I be doing everything I see in my head in reality? Either way its good stuff.
So next month I turn 26 and I still have no idea what to do for my b-day. I might just end up going to Biloxi, Miss. and gamble in one of the casinos. I can totally picture myself pulling the lever down on a slot machine and hitting the big jackpot and watching Med pull me out of the place immediately! He knows I'd spend half of it back in the casino. :o)
Next month I also finally go back to my thyroid specialist and I'm uber excited to be back on meds b/c I'm ready start losing some of this weight. I can lose weight, but like after a couple days the numbers go back up on the scale regardless of what I do. It's discouraging to say the least.
Oh yeah and like this weekend I felt kinda flattered that this gorgeous girl was so taken by how pretty my face is and my cute personality. It was like we both wanted what the other had. I wanted her body and she wanted my confidence.
So yeah....2008 rawks my sox b/c in the past 6 yrs of knowing I had hypothyroidism I have reached acceptance of my sometimes bloated look but know how awesome I will look again with the right hormonal therapy. Having no insurance in America is like the worst thing ever! On that note....I'm out.
(disclaimer: this blog will be in a jumble b/c one, I'm still hungover and two, stuff is still fuzzy and the memories are hitting me when they do. Now we will continue with our regularly scheduled blog.)
was great! Lastnight was KT's bachelorette party and we had the party bus. It was awesome! It looked like a huge tour bus and everytime we stepped out people were looking at us trying to figure out if we were famous or just spoiled brats. Had a couple offers from guys that if we let them strip for us they could ride on the bus with us. We picked three gorgeous looking guys at Tantra, but being the unsatisfied women we are, we found something annoying about them and left them at the bar.
At the beginning of the day I was pissed off with how much I had spent in two days and trying to think about stuff I could return and then I was like screw it, I'll get paid again. Spending over 300 dollars is not good.
Lastnight was kind of a blur of laughter and people busting their asses. I was fashionably late to the bachelorette party and when I got there everyone was already drunk so I polished off a bottle of raspberry verdi by myself, in about 30mins. Half the girls I knew and the other half I didn't but you know how most folks are happy drunks and blurt out their "I LOVE U's" to any and everyone. I know I was doing it!
Haha, now that I think about it, I kissed random folks lastnight and I'm just now getting Med's cold. So obviously I spread it around Tallahassee alil bit more. Oh it wasn't like french kissing but I did pop kisses.
Here's a pic I love that I ganked from KT's myspace of me, KT and Corie.
Here's some other photo's from the night b/c I lost my train of thought and I should probably be laying down again. I feel like I might puke. :o/
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